Leave it the way it was, when you leave.... :|

Honestly...its all about the experiences and the lessons and all the scars that we have got throughout our 10s, 15s ,22s, 25s, 27s...ok.. leave that number...if 365 days will decide our age and growth  where in a parallel planet people don't calculate age or 365 days to keep track of anything and everything, then we will not take that number into account..

The more you learn, the more you start thinking, rather doubting..because trusting or believing something doesn't come easily...because you have done that before...You will be still debating if that is a good thing or bad thing...Good thing of course...but you will miss that person who had been flawlessly giving, trusting before all the unjust happened :P Come on..its not always about love at all...its about life...its about the people and things in it...

Seems like whatever you have gone through , crossed and come through...been there...done that...the learning matters which does not require us to mold ourselves into a perfect shape because we are humans and bound to do mistakes, and then with each mistake we learn something :) 

After all, we live in a beautiful place where greed, selfishness, stabbing your back, sometimes stabbing right there on your front, your heart leaving you dead when still alive,  thrives along with things like unconditional love, humility and honesty...

So......whats up with the title of the blog ???...

Ok...

I had been sitting in my work-space in my new Organization that I have joined 5 months back...this time without all my precious possessions surrounding me unlike my previous Organization's workspace .. My prized possessions..haha..my Porsche Cayman.. :P (gifted by one of my good friend in exchange for a portrait that i drew so unwell and disappointed him :P ) , another little microscopic car (that was found in a Cheetos packet, keeping with me still in memory of my golden client days) that might get lost if you breathe a little harder, and i will keep searching for it, sometimes even stolen by my people ...and then a car shed that I had created for those two prized possessions using a cardboard from Amazon :P  and then a stationary holder that I used to steal from my good friend who finally gave it to me on his farewell day, and then a bunch of mischievous friends who have an amazing  (:P) wavelength when it comes to humor and great poor jokes...:P who used to have an eye on my cars and parking...sometimes rushing up to me telling 'Iniya..urgent..I will take one of your cars to go... :P

Chillllll....just thinking back...

Ok...So why the title "Leave it the way it was...when you leave'...yeahhhh....sitting in my desk which is yet to give that home like feel like my previous workspace, I was busy with some piece of work , when the house keeping staffs entered the bay to do their job.

There was my white board marker lying on the desk..but lying upright, vertical :P ...Yes... :) I had it stand upright that way... :P

The akka who was cleaning my workspace commoved the marker, and other stuffs, for her to clean the place, and when she was about to leave, she tried to leave the marker (keep it standing..) , the way it was before..! :)

Myself...who was engrossed into the monitor at that moment realized, saw her, smiled and told her to leave it as such . No.. neither of us spoke, but understood each other's un-spoken conversation with a smile..

For few minutes, I paused working..thinking about so many things in life, where people had left us(not the literal 'left us')  be it people who were closer to us or complete strangers, at one point in life, they leave a trace of something taking away with them something that was there before they came, and will never be the same, that you can never fix. No this is not about love, this covers all the aspects , say, it involves truth, honesty, integrity, selflessness and what not..

There is something more to the fact that we are hurt , its just that your mind, heart  and eyes will never perceive things again in the same way..

Along with those thoughts, in parallel I could not stop thinking about the Akka's flawless volition of placing the marker back to position, thereby respecting what I had been doing before :P though its meaningless, useless that i have done..but that is what made me think much and appreciate her notion even more...

That moment I wished everything and everybody acted the way the Akka tried to fix the marker after her work was done...! :) Is that too much to ask , still knowing that it will never happen...This will happen if there is a magical potion or that you could never br disturbed because the things around you is magical..including the persons in it..who knows how it is like, to be broken , and to handle with care because once broken is broken..

Because, each time something is broken, that child in you is lost slowly...because she is growing, and she has to...